Holy Freaking Crap

So after my busy day of doctor's visits and shopping I finally sat down to apply for a job that came in today. I had a good feeling about this one, I was actually well qualified. Most of the jobs I apply for I am only semi-qualified for. I was just about to hit send in my email when the phone rang. I assumed it was DH--it was after 6:00 and he was supposed to let me know when he was close to town so that we could meet for dinner.

It was Contract Firm. I haven't heard from them in 6 weeks. They want to meet with me next week. One of their associates is leaving and they want me to talk to me about resuming contract work and possibly taking over his position permanently. They said that even though he is experienced they think that they can get me up to speed and train me to take over.

I could not have been more shocked. When I think about it, I feel like I am going to vomit. I really don't want to get my hopes up again because I don't think I can take anymore emotional turmoil.

I think in the meeting I need to tell them that I need some kind of commitment or deadline to move from contract to permanency. I do not want to take myself off the market if they are not serious about a permanent position. And it's not like they haven't already seen my work.

Meanwhile I went ahead a submitted the application for the other job, and I have rescheduled the meeting with the recruiter.