Coming Out

I finally came out of the closet at Contract Firm and revealed my mom status. I don't think anybody there had a clue that I had kids, in fact I am certain they assumed that I was a typical 25 year old recent grad. Given my past experiences I wasn't about to volunteer that I had kids--I wanted the chance to prove myself first.

But yesterday the office administrator emailed to say she was processing my check and to make sure there weren't any more days to be submitted. But I'm not supposed to get paid until the end of the month. So of course, I launch into freak-out mode, assuming that this is a subtle hint that they will not be needing me the rest of the month--or ever. (Ok, so I am a little insecure these days.) I replied that I wondering if she was processing my check early because I wouldn't be needed the rest of the month. She said she didn't know but could ask if I wanted her to. This put me in an odd predicament, because on one hand I don't want to be too pushy or reveal my insecurity, but on the other hand, a little predictability in my life would be awesome.

So I decided to play the nanny card and reveal myself. I told her that while I don't mind coming in on short notice, I like to give my nanny some warning so that she could be available. Which is certainly true.

Hopefully, this will lead to a little more predictability for both me and Lucy (or we'll both continue to be jobless). And I think that I have put enough long hours in over there to prove myself, despite having borne three children.