So I received a response back from my thank you email, which sounded pretty much like a blow off. They were very polite and told me what a great asset I will be to the legal community and wished my luck on my bar results. Which seems to imply that 1) they do not intend to see me again before bar results; and 2) they do not think I will be a great asset for their firm.
So it is back to job hunting (as if I ever really stopped). I am trying very hard not to fall into the depths of depression and self-pity. It is hard not to think that I made a terrible, terrible mistake. My family was doing fine before I decided to flit off to law school. If I am not employed by the time my loans come due things will be very, very bad. I thought that I would be making things better for my family, but from where I sit right now, I have only made things worse.
And the optomists are bugging the shit out of me. The perfect job just hasn't come along yet--it will all work out. How do you know that? How do you know that I won't get stuck in some crappy-ass job that I hate because it is the only job that I can get? I actually liked law school, and there are several areas of the law that I would really enjoy wroking in. But none of them seem to be heading my way.
I have applied for about 40 jobs since late March. Since then I have had 2 interviews. How am I ever going to get my foot in the door at this rate? Once the kids are back in school next week I will start looking for contract work.
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I'm so sorry. :( The only optomistic thing I will say is that I used to work at a firm that employed a lot of contract attorneys (in DC) and they were treated very well. Some even got to go to trial and were like permanent contract people, having worked there for years. There are good contract positions out there.
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