MIL is still hanging in there. Last night we thought she was done. Her pulse dropped, and her breathing became even more irregular. We were all gathered around and she told us all that she loved us and spoke to each of us separately. And we were all bawling. We really thought she was done.
And then she suddenly popped out of it and started cracking jokes. We ended up crying tears of laughter.
But this is the second time this has happened, and it is emotionally draining.
After talking with the nurses, we decided that all of us standing around might be anchoring her here. So all of the kids headed home for the night leaving just FIL with her. Our hope was that she would pass peacefully during the night.
But she's still here. This morning she broke down crying and said that she isn't ready to give it all up yet. She also keeps apologizing, which is absurd because MIL is one of the most giving, morally true people I've ever met.
She is in and out of lucidity. Sometimes she understands that she is dying, and other times she has no idea where she is or what is going on. Her pain is becoming increasingly difficult to manage. I think FIL is about to collapse from exhaustion, but he won't leave her side.
We've all had the chance to say goodbye, and we've accepted that she's leaving. We've also told her that it's ok for her to go. But she's just not ready to leave yet.
4 comments:
wow. that is really sweet actually. you should print/save these posts, i bet they will be nice/helpful for your family to have later.
This sounds so hard. I am hoping for the best for her, whatever that may be.
How terribly, terribly sad and difficult. You all remain in my prayers.
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