I'm scared of busses.

More specifically, I'm afraid of my children riding on busses. And all of them are going to have the opportunity within the next month. Its field trip season. Oldest DD is going to the Aquarium. I am so not comfortable with that. First, its the City. Its big. There are bad guys there. One teacher can't possible watch over 20 kids. Second, its the aquarium--what if she falls in the shark tank? Mostly, though, I am terrified of her riding a bus for 30 miles, over a 5 mile bridge to get to the city. It is talking all of my willpower to let her go, but I don't want to stunt her socially by not letting her. Also, I can't go with her. I have a final that morning--no getting around that. So I guess I am going to have to suck it up and let her go.

But it gets worse. That same week her gifted and talented class is also taking a field trip. Also to the City--but this time 60 miles away. I just don't think I can do it. But I could go on that trip--my finals will be done. But even if I go, I can't ride the bus with her--school rules. So will my kid be the class nerd if her mommy drives her to the field trip? Probably.

Now the very worst. My sweet babies, my four year old twins are scheduled for a field trip to the zoo. In the City. They are just so little, and four year olds are so wild. I really don't see how their teacher can keep up with them. I do know that a lot of parents will be going along on this trip. I have class on that day. Actually its my busiest day, and I have three classes. I am seriously considering skipping to go with them. I still can't ride the bus with them, but at least if I drive them, at four years old they don't have the social stigma that my 7 year old would have. For goodness' sake, they still ride in car seats, and they are supposed to ride on a bus that doesn't even have seat belts?

I know I'm neurotic. I just know that no one else will watch over my kids as carefully as I do--and they manage to find plenty of trouble under my watch. Also I have bad bus karma. I totaled my car on a school bus in high school (the kids on the bus were all fine). But I'm afraid my bad bus karma will come back to haunt me via my kids.